I somehow developed an ailment similar to agoraphobia(some type a fear of crowds) around 2000. It just out of the blue, one minute I'm like front row and center at like ZZ Top, then suddenly I can't even go in a store. I'm inclined, as you, to avoid meds far as possible, especially "mind" drugs or mood "enhancers", even tho antibiotics and pain pills don't bother me, and I'm not inclined to addictions with them, I have pain pills from 2003 sitting in the cabinet, which I save for pains severe enough to warrant them, but thankfully I have a very high threshold.
After studying into mine online(i found numerous "dr"s who were willing to sell a "cure"), I did find some very informative solutions that didn't require meds, mostly dealt with working your way through the fears(or whatever it was). Where I had previously had to force myself through these circumstances(I nearly drove away from my Dad's funeral after seeing the crowd) I learned there was a process of placing yourself into these situations at a lower level of "threat?" and working on through them, then gradually stepping up to another level.
I worked this over in my mind enough that it went into my subconcious, I didn't have to conciously address it, just began taking bigger and bigger steps. The last couple years I've been to family reunions etc, which I avoided before, even attempting to go, but getting halfway there and turning around. I felt my family had even disowned me by now, but thankfully found they had not
There are many different "mind games" life will play on folks, and too many think the answer lies in a drug. Maybe in some cases it's neccessary, such as a body not producing the proper chemicals to help it address these issues.
I do wish you well in your quest for a cure, or answers, whatever it is you hope to find. You certainly have my best wishes here Hoss. Please take care of yourself man, and good luck
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