Don't really have anyone to talk too so i thought id put some words down on "paper" here. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that. Just need to vent a little.
When i was 19 (22 now) i was diagnosed with mild OCD, sever anxiety disorder, sever bipolar disorder, night terrors, mild Agent Orange poisoning passed down through my Fathers DNA, and sleep apnea (stop breathing in your sleep). I do not take medication for anything, i don't believe in it. I think that what is "wrong" with me is all chemical, and can be changed by my own doing.
I had to step out of the scrap game when relationships broke down with the person i was renting my shop with. Basically, long and short of it, i could no longer deal with being around him. I could no longer control my anger. It was at a dangerous level. Since then i've been having a really difficult time "controlling the crazy" as i put it. My OCD is getting worse, as well as the night terrors and bipolar. Ive gotten in legal trouble now because of my anger.
I have court on the day after Christmas. How wonderful is that? Haha.
I'm wondering if their is anyone else here who has some of these problems, and does not take medication for them. I cannot afford them.
Sorry for the rambling, but i needed to just type some stuff out. Of course once i started typing everything i wanted to say went out the window. Funny how that works.
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