Hello Jord,
I too went through much of what you are going through now in my early twenties. The crazy part is, I still kinda am. However, I now have little ones to provide for and while I would like to develop my professional direction, I think my hopes and dreams are now my kids hopes and dreams.
The most helpful thing I ever did for myself was take a year-long breather. I was managing a bar and a deli in a swanky hotel back east. I was a little over a year out of college with a degree I didn't give monkey-scratch about. However, I knew I wouldn't have gone back to school if dropped out and it was important to me to get my little piece of paper.
Long story, short... I was getting tired of trying to break into the music business, trying to look like a big-shot and hanging out in clubs after work. I sold off all my belongings, bought a plane ticket to Alaska, got a job out in the middle of nowhere doing a bear-viewing tour, lived in the shell of a mobile home, froze my tail off, learned to fish for salmon, met some interesting people, bummed around the Northwest and Canada, and learned a little about myself.
10 years later, I am married with a wonderful wife and two great kids. I work a boring and unsatisfying job, but it pays the bills. I scrap metal to get some "me-time." I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up, but I am happier and better off for having said, "Screw it all!" for even just a little while. I did make a permanent move to the NorthWest and love it here.
Work is a four-letter word. Only a few people really, truly get to do what they want for a career. However, working a job to provide for yourself and others is something that can give a man satisfaction.
You sound like a responsible, young man who was raised right. Take pride in your abilities and rely on your skills to get you through, especially in the tough times. Get out there and see a little bit of the world. I learned more in my year of travels than I did in four at a university. If you decide to get more education, go for it! Just study something based in mathematics or hard science.
Best of luck to you. I think you are going to do just fine.
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